i have found the love of my life.

i enjoy thrift store shopping,
i like finding somthing unexpected.
somthing someone else didn't want,
and falling in love with it.
well, we have a goodwill right around the corner from our house,
which is nice for me.
i went today to find an ugly christmas sweater for friday,
and of course had to browse to see if there were any good deals.
while looking at the tech stuff i happened to see a little black box.
i tryed not to get my hopes up,
and then, it hit me. i had finally found a polaroid camera.
it was all i could do from jumping up and down and yelling.
i decided at that point i should check the price, seeing as i still needed to buy a sweater, and i only brought 10 dollars.
the sticker said 3. it was a miracle.
on top of that it was yellow sticker day, %50 off.
it was a miracle x2!
i had a found a polaroid camera
at an affordable price. dirt cheap actually.
now i'm anxious to find out if it actually works.
i reeeeeally want to go get film. now. but i will wait.
i ahve wanted one for awhile
but haven't found one (other than online) that i actually wanted.
today i did. i am very happy:]

one of my favorite things

here is yet another beautiful sunset.
this was taken on December 3rd, 2009
from the usual spot of my driveway.
sunsets are one of my favorite things,
(as you can tell)
they are a promise from God
of a new beautiful day soon to come.

Well. Today is the last day of the posting everyday thing! I will be taking a break. Haha

i stayed home sick today. I stomach felt yuck and i had a nasty headache. I slept most of the time.
It was probably from having everyone here this weekend, and being so busy at school.
Well i'm going to hit the sack.

today

my aunt keri is pregnant, and my family really wanted me to take some photos of her.
we finally got around to it today.
we put up a sheet in the living room, and here are the results!
she's having a little girl, haven't decided on a name yet.

Today i am going to take a break from serious posting and enjoy the day with my family. I love it when they're here.

today, we were back and forth to stillwater.
on the way back i was talking to stef about life and such,
and i've been thinking about how it's nice to have a plan
but it can change.
i like knowing what i'm going to do,
but i know that things change, people change, and life changes.
for all i know i'll be a firefighter,
i have more to say but i'm to lazy to type it.
contd. tomorrow!

I am thankful for my family. I know everyone says they do, but they truly mean so much to me.
Every. Single. One.
All 13 and soon to be 14.
They are always there for me, always ready with a smile.
We're constantly laughing. Encouraging one another. There with a helping hand.
Crazy, loud, really loud, and very close.
We are diffrent from other families.
They are amazing.
Thank you God for blessing me with a wonderful family.

To day was interesting nevertheless. I sure do have an interesting extended family. I have been enjoying the company of my immediate family though. They really mean a lot to me. I am happy, Not fully stuffed though. Peace out cub scout!

Toda has been an intesresting day. School was the usual, then after, i had an officer meeting. Then i went to goodwill with mimi, i got a sweater. Came home, ate, and have been getting ready for everyone to get here tomorrow while watching "much ado about nothing". Fun stuff. And next i sleep. Ready for everyone to get here!!!:]

After a busy day at school, i came home and did a lot of homework. Then rick, jc and i went to bj's and the mall. The end. Haha. My day was not that exciting.
One more day of school!!!

I'm also dyeing to know the result of the photojojo contest! I hope i won the camera!

okay so i was lazy and went back to sleep, i didn't take a walk this morning. i'm still grieving over my camera. sad sad day. poor Lindsey. yes, she has a name.
so i spent most of my day writing a stupid DBQ and essay for APUSH. my worst enemy.
i have a headache, and i am SO glad there is only 2 days of school this week.
i am ready for the family, conversations, food, love and everything else that comes with thanksgiving. holidays are my favorite. other than the fact there's no school:]
today has been a fairly blah day, with not much to update about.
i get to finish my DBQ tomorrow and that's probably it, other than going to school.
maybe it will be rainy and i can get some pictures. or not.

here's another sunset picture.

Sad sad day. I went to Baker photo and video today to see about getting my camera fixed. They did a workshop for our yearbook over the summer, they were amazingly helpful and nice. But they couldn't fix my camera, and so now it has to be sent in to Canon. And i won't get it back for about 4 weeks.
Thankfully dad said i can use his though.
At this moment i am thinking i will go for a walk in the morning, it has been a crazy, hard, and stressful 2 weeks. And i need a break. Time to think. And the best way for me to think is to take pictures.
I'm watching snl right now. I never know what time it's on so i always miss it. I have an essay and a dbq i need to start on tomorrow.
I have decided i for sure want to do great things when i get older. I don't know what though.
Random.
Aaaanyways. I'm going to watch my show now.

I failed. We saw the musical at my school last night, then went to the midnight showing of new moon. I didn't blog, i'm so dissapointed. An extremely tired. I'll update on everything tomorrow.

This blogging everyday this is hard. I've been trying this thinh called wix. Yoy can make your own website. Idk tht i'll finish mine anytime soon, but we'll see. When i DO finish it, i want it to be perfect.

I'm dieing without my camera. But there is still hope. I will hopefully be going to Baker photo either tomorrow or friday! My hopes are high that it can be fixed, and i won't have to send it in to Canon. I really want it before thanksgiving. Bleeeeeeck.

Stressed beyond compare

Weeeeell. I have been on overload tonight. I had so much homework. In conclusion i am not going to blog long. Plus i don't really have anything to say. :] i had a not so good day today. Again. But i'm just going to not dwell on that.
Peace iz-out!

Family

I had a blast today.
Yearbook is one big family,
it's nice to have, espically with the stuff i'm going through.
I'm ready for this week. Well mostly thursday.

I'm also thankful for my amazing family.
My dad is very supportive,
and my mommy listens when i need her and gives great advice.
And my brother, well. He's my brother. But i know he loves me mucho.
I don't know what i'd do without them.

camera, don't fail me now.

today started out similar to yesterday,
i slept in.
then i read until about 12
and started getting ready for fiddler on the roof.
it was pretty good!
once i got home i decided it was time to make my new moon shirt,
seeing as the movie is THIS WEEK!!
the new moon thingy is in the corner, if ya didn't know.
it's all iron on's! :]



super excited for tomorrow!
i'm sure i'll have lots to post about.

my camera is being weird and getting an error 99,
i'm familiar with it because our school cameras get that a lot.
but mine has never done it before.
i really hope it stops. i'll probably cry if it doesn't.
plus i'm suppose to be taking pictures tomorrow! bleeeeck.

today, a much needed day of happiness.

i stayed the night at my mimi's house last night.
today we had a very very busy day.
it started out with sleeping in until 10.
after that we decided to go see a movie,
Coco avant Chanel,
before the movie, we stopped at neighborhood walmart to get snacks for the movie. (see Stanley above) then we actually saw the movie, which was absolutely amazing.
next we went to Pier one,
where i imagined i owned my own apartment and had thousands of dollars to spend to decorate my newly bought home, and i fell deeply in love with a painting of the Eiffel tower (looks better in person), that the people behind us in line bought. which made me sad.
after that we went to texas roadhouse,
then i went home, where we watched our weekly shows.
then i did lots and lots of dishes.
my mom gave me a lovely box of chocolate covered cookie dough because i had a really bad week, and here i sit on the computer, blogging.
after, i will probably be going to watch much ado about nothing.
and then sleep!

i have now updated my "portfolio"
check it out!

flat stanely

SO EXCITED!
my cousin sent me a flat Stanley!
if you don't know what that is,
there's a book about a kid who gets flatten and the mom mails him to different places.
well basically, i am suppose to write about where i went with my Stanley.
and you can take pictures with it, yada yada.
i will be looking at this as a photo assignment, because i need one:]
i'm not sure how long i have him,
and how i will give her the pictures or what i will do with them,
printing is kinnda expensive,
but i'm pumped!
i'll probably have the awesomest one! bahaha
i think they present them to their class and stuff,
but i don't know yet.
anyways, i'm waiting for my cousin to call me so i can find out details.

well this will be short and sweet, considering, once i again, i don't really have anything to say. this weekend should be good. on sunday i got free fiddler on the roof tickets. so i'm excited for that. then on monday is OIPA. there has been lots of yearbook drama. it's not my favorite. i have a headache, so i am going to take a shower and go to bed early. adios!

old vs. new

looking at these, i don't feel like i have improved all that much over the past two years. i don't know. these are from the beginning of my "career" while i still had my old canon, a point and shoot. just thought i could do a comparison. well, my mom actually gave me the idea.

I'm not really sure what i'm doing. Wandering blindly in a dark hallway, hoping a door will pop open soon with better brighter things. I don't know what i really want either. I guess i just want to be happy. I've been so stressed and runnin around crazy, i need a break.
I wanna skip to monday. OIPA is that day, then thursday night is New Moon and the week after is thanksgiving.
Maybe after school tomorow i'll go adventuring for photos, then i'll have somthing to post. I don't want to post because i HAVE to. I want to want to post. If that made sense. Well, i have things i need to do before bed.

i'm done.

i'm done with high school. with the drama, the immature people, and everything in between.
today hasn't been the best of all days. i got in a fight with my best friend.
i could have either a. not said anything and then let it continue building inside me. or b. said what i did and got it out. i'm still mad and all that jazz. everything was perfect freshman and the first semester of sophomore year, it went down hill from there. and has just gotten worse. i've run out of things to do. i don't know. i hold on because i love her to death, and it would be like never talking to my sister again, but i don't think she feels the same way. the tiniest problem is if i let go, who do i have to go to? i don't really have any friends outside of her. i have yearbook and orchestra, but i don't really have any super close friends in there. enough of the yuckyness.
i wanted to get out and relieve stress by taking pictures but instead had to do homework all afternoon, i watched project runway with my mom too.
on top of a really bad day, my car got egged. fabulous.
i took this picture like two weeks ago before our orchestra concert. i walked out to my car without my camera because i had no plans to take pictures. well, the moment i walked outside, i walked back in and grabbed it.
i love a good sunset.

Tired.

I have (obviously) run out of things to say. And pictures to post. Makes me sad.
I'm so stinkin tired. Tired of the drama and the fact i've been through it before. And i'm just straight up tired.
I was a good day, light hanging, home depot, project runway, little ceasers, monk, music man, and a UFO. And that is my day in 14 words.
Tomorrow will be church, lunch, and then homework times 50. Oh joy.
Now time to sleeeep.

okay so i had posted the pictures for my fall project but deleted them, i'm still aggravated with them.
we lost the game, got some (hopefully) good photos from the football game.
this was super super short but i have volunteering in the morning.

compliments!

I got two big complements today, my favorite kind too, photog. My close friend sarah, is a senior this year. They have to make a senior portfolio for english, and she is a big bowler. She had no pictures of herself and asked if i would take some. Actually, it was more like. "WAIT! You're a photographer! Can you take pictures of me bowling?" And of course, i said yes. The shoot went smooth, short and sweet. She only needed like 3 or 4 good pictures. Might post those within the next couple of days.
My second compliment today was while at the bowling alley, a girl in my math class was there. I went over, said hi, asked if she had done the math homework yet, blah, blah. She then asks if i was taking pictures of sarah. She said she loves my pictures, and they are amazing, that i inspire her. This made me happy:]
This will be a busy busy weekend. But i'm pumped. Tomorrow night we have a game, it's senior night, meaning pictures pictures and more pictures. Then saturday morning i have NHS volunteering, the music man: snu's musical, and then the rest of snu's homecoming events. Sunday we have church and lunch, then sleep.
Now i leave you on the note of wanting more. Or less:]

branson trip

for fall break we went to branson and had a blast.
i always love going on trips with my family.
heres some of the shots i got while there!
sorry it took so long to ACTUALLY post them:]

fall

is the most wonderful time of the year!
yes i changed the lyrics-ish.
here is a couple of photos i took yesterday.
voila!
the first one was on the side street behind the science building,
and the other three were taken in my front yard.
obviously i was really feelin the sunburst:]














tomorrow yearbook is going to OSU!! i'm excited.
except for the part where i have to be at school at 7:20am.
my fall project has disappointed me.
i guess i'll still post it, but it didn't turn out like i wanted it to. boo.

Yes. I did say every day.

Okay so i'm starting out of order, but i will be posting on my blog everyday. Crazy right? Considering i normally post like zero! Anyways, it might be a song, how i'm feeling, or what i ate for lunch. I'd say it will be all photog related, but i can't do that. Crazy right? I talk about it 24/7. One of the blogs i follow talked about NaBloPoMo (national blog posting month) so i joined. Along with my dad. And will be commiting to posting. Pinky swear. Hopfully i'll attract readers and not scare them away. I had a lot i wanted to say but i'm sleepy. It's bed time, peace out cub scout.

i need to post my pictures

my updated fall project thingy needs to be posted.
jc has been on the desktop a lot so hopefully i can have it up by the end of the week.
peace out!

the last 2 hours

i have been photo shopping 2 photos.
the pioneer woman set up a weekly assignment, texture.
i decided to spend some time adding texture to a picture.
i started out with one and was going to add it to the flickr group, but felt like it wasn't enough, so i did another one.
i find it funny it took so long to work on just 2 photos.
i'm not much of a photo shop person. i prefer the lighten a little, sometimes make one black and white, burn the edges type, of photos, but never spend this long on only 2 photos. but since i'm suppose to be going out of the box, this is what i came up with.





all of the photos used were ones i'd taken before. i decided not to take ones special for this.
if you wanna know how to add texture, go here.

new project!

well it's not much of a project but it's an idea.
it'll take a couple of weeks though and hopefully it'll be amazing.
i'm calling it the fall project. creative right? ;]
so jc and i were driving home from school and i yelled (rather loudly) look!!! the leaves have started changing!!!
fall is definitely my favorite season.
then as i was driving home from the library i really looked at the leaves, trees, and our street as a whole and had an idea.
so i ran inside, grabbed my camera, and went for a walk.
i'm not going to reveal everything but, will give you a sneak peek.
just uploaded, fresh off the press!





i love the details. the criss-cross texture on the acorn, puddle of water on the leaf, the bokeh, contrast of the green, and the leaves tinged in red. i can't wait for the finale!

inspiration

wow. i was looking at a great blog, http://www.paperpony.net/ and i was thinking about how i love her pictures, because she is really creative. the diana+ pictures are some of my favorites. i love imperfections, to the max. i don't see why people always have to have everything exact and straight and this and that. i especially don't understand perfection in what is suppose to be your creative outlet. try something different this week. go outside of the box.
that's my goal as well. i don't always do that, and i really try. there shouldn't be rules for photography or music or knitting or whatever else you can think of. it's how you feel about what you create, not what others think.

my current favorite song.
melody by kate earl


no matter what has ever come to me
i got my own brand of company
i got da da da inside my head
and i play songs back to back until i got to bed

wake up by myself inside an empty room
theres no body next to mine to oooh
but my skin is warm and my heart is full
its the do do do do do do

walking waking on a crowded street
with my headphones loud
so my hips can swing, so my head can nod
to the rock and roll to the boom boom beat

& i find that im never alone
& i find that my heart is my home
& the music within makes me whole
a world that i built on my own

& i know that im never alone
& i know that my heart is my home
every missing piece of me
i can find in a melody

no matter what has ever come to me
i got my own kind of company
i got ba ba ba inside my head
and i sing songs back to back until i go to bed

theres a river in my mind thats never still
swirling , soothing all the time gives me a thrill
swimming in the notes that go
oh oh oh oh oh oh oh

wandering, waking in an empty wood
it is quiet here, i am powerful
i look down below serenade the world
from inside my soul

& i find that im never alone
& i find that my heart is my home
& the music within makes me whole
a world that i built on my own

& i know that im never alone
& i know that my heart is my home
every missing piece of me
i can find in a melody

when the walls begin to creep in
and the sky is fallin down
when im swallowed up in feelings
i get lost inside the sound...

weeeeell.

i did not actually achieve my goal. but this week and last have been ridiculously crazy. i'm not making excuses, just stating facts.
anyways my dad give me some good advice last week, "don't look at it as work, have fun." and i don't think i look at it as work, and it's not that i'm blocked. i just have the wrong attitude about it.
so basically, be happy with everything you do.


i also thought that i would add that i am about the happiest i have been in awhile.
one of my absolute fav photogers complimented me today, i'm sure it didn't mean much to him. but it means A LOT to me. i am inspired by the photos he takes. or well, posts. considering i just follow his blog. haha. anyways. i am absolutely blissful at the moment.

“You don’t take a photograph, you make it." - Ansel Adams

October 19, 2009



November 2, 2009

i'm setting a goal.

i will write a story this week.
i could do it in a shorter amount of time,
but i want to make sure it at least gets done.
not a regular story though, a photo story.

jpgmag.com is an amazing website that i use frequently.
it's a great way to meet other photographers,
and to display your work for others to see.
here's a link to stories that people have created,
http://jpgmag.com/stories/

i'll post my story on there at the end of the week and then post a link to it here.
i'm going to try to start setting goals like this once a week for myself
so i'm not stuck and take pictures of the same things over and over.
maybe every other week.
so, first, story ideas anyone?
peace out cub scout!

i feel blocked in a way

and i don't really know why.
when i get sent out to take pictures of the exact same thing i did the day before
i get a tad annoyed. for some of the spreads we don't exactly know what type of pictures they want so we're kinnda just going along.

i thank the lord every day for my camera.
the school's camera SUCKS.
i haven't thanked my parents enough for mine.
it's my baby:]

junior year has been ridiculously busy so far.
from all 20 clubs i'm in, plus being junior class vp, homework, jcrew, and yearbook i'm already feeling a bit stressed.
but i wouldn't trade it for the world.
i may complain occasionally, but i don't understand how some kids can just not have anything to do.
my classes are okay right now. math should be interesting, i love the teacher, but she isn't the best at teaching. of course APUSH is killing me. but thats because of coleman. yearbook is fun, but i hate writing captions, and orchestra is not really my favorite. the music is so easy and some of the freshman are just annoying. but thats what i get for choosing yearbook over orchestra.
so i'm basically just writing about nothing right now. haha.
friendships are okay. some people seem to be drifting away but thats because we're all so busy. we're ready to snap at each other over almost nothing. distance doesn't really make the heart grow fonder.
boys. well. i thought that i found a guy i liked but that took a 360. so i'm back to me, myself, and i. which isn't necessarily a bad thing, it would just be kinnda nice. idk.
so i got in a wreck last week. well, a week ago from today.
i'm fine, the other car was fine. i just wasn't paying good enough attention and i was in a big hurry. it seriously scared me to death. no joke. i don't really like turning left anymore. at all. some peoples reaction to said wreck aggravated me. thankfully i didn't get a ticket or anything. the car is fixable and my parents were okay with it. it seriously did scare me to death though.
then dad had an accident the day before that. which was interesting. plus he bought a motorcycle. which i haven't rode yet. it makes me really nervous. and my wreck adds to that nervousness, i don't exactly know why. but i'm not in any hurry to ride it.

excuse all of the misspellings and such. i'm sure you can tell i'm not the best at grammer. it's cool though, that's why i'm a picture person:]

so a month or two ago

i did a shoot with some amazing boys.
i know, it's taken forever for me to post again. i'm a horrible person.
anyways, here are some of the photos.
they were really fun and i love them to death!
i took them to the bethany fire department and they loved the truck.

(this was totally on accident, but i LOVE this photo!)

louisiana trip

very exciting. we spent lots of time with family and ate had as always, had fun. i always love being there. here are some photos i took.


this was actually before the trip. maddy always sits in the car while my dad packs up our suitcases, so i took some pics of her.


























there is a story behind this feeling. my grandparents own a lot of land and my cousins, aunt and i decided to build a fort in a cluster of trees at the back of their property. we had windows, a bench, and this sign. it didn't last for too terribly long. one visit my uncles and dad were trying to burn the pasture and it jumped the line and got into the forest. every firetruck in the area came. it wasn't THAT bad. anyways papa grabbed our scraps of a fort and we haven't rebuilt it for some reason.